Small Victories

I was late to class today and they were already at the track when I got there (we run every day). I was 5 minutes late! So I get down there and she is at the end of explaining what we are doing today and I didn't understand, so I went up to her and asked what we are doing today. She looks at me and says, "Are you late?" I say yes and she said, "You missed all my directions." And I looked at her and said, "Yes." I was very assertive and it felt really good! Normally I might have moseyed around it and gave her some excuse. But I didn't do that. I just stood my ground. I was barely late and she didn't have to be yucky! When we got back to class she called me up and gave me a dot next to my name. I guess that means late... oooh, scary! :) She was like, "yep, that's what happens!" I thought that to be highly amusing. She felt as though she was punishing me... I thought it was funny! :)

On my way home a car tried to kill me. I was at a stop light in the far right lane. The entire other side of the street after the intersection was full and so I was waiting. The light turned green for me and so I started to go (cause my lane had cleared up) and this car making a right turn is looking toward the direction he is going (instead of oncoming traffic) and tries to turn into the lane to my right which is completely full! So, he stops, right in my lane! I honked at him and he was like, "what?" it was so annoying! It's not a hard rule... don't stop in a lane when there is oncoming traffic! As well as you aren't supposed to block an intersection! And the one he should have learned long ago, look both ways! :) Oh well! I'm alive! :)

P.s. I am hating running less! It's a pretty day today!

It's Wednesday... I think?

This morning I babysat for a class and it was fun and I enjoyed myself. I really like babies!

You know how there are people that you just don't like, maybe there isn't a real tangible reason, but just something about them rubs you wrong? Well, I feel that way about the lead teacher for the babysitting. She's a fine lady, perfectly nice, but her attitude about things I dislike, and what she decides is important. Yes, she is in that position for a reason, however, I'm not sure she should be.

She runs around panicky about almost everything... oh my gosh, the baby is crying, let me go get him tissues, the two year olds are going to crush the babies (they were playing fine) she is just overly protective. I'm not a fan of that. She wants everything to be just so... they are BABIES! They don't stay or sit still or listen very well. They are busy and crazy. They just are. And as babysitters, I feel that it is our job to help them enjoy themselves and forget that Mommy isn't there. As mom, yes, there is discipline and such, but we are not to give punishment. It's just difficult. She feels that her way is the right way and the only right way. Fortunately it is only once a month with her. :)

Anyway, more laundry, more dishes and getting dinner ready.

Cute story: Lucy was in the class this morning and everything that she saw, she said, "Oooh" "Wow" "Ba!" (Ball and several other words too). She was SO excited to be in the class with all the different toys that she couldn't contain herself! She was so excited to play with everything! Gosh I love that kid!

Food and Jury Duty

Last night I made incredible chimichangas! YUM! I am eating one for lunch right now.

So, I just got dismissed from Jury Duty... yay! Sometimes I think I wouldn't mind being on a jury, others, I wouldn't, like today. I think it's a cool process and it's important, I just don't wanna do it. I guess though if everyone had that attitude we wouldn't ever have any juries. That might be a problem... Anyway, I didn't lie to get out of it or anything, I was just honest. Cheers to being honest!

So, while I was waiting to see if I was going to get called to a court room, I was dozing leaning on my hand and apparently I had fallen asleep because the lady announced something on the loud speaker and I just about jumped out of my skin! It scared me awake! When I got up to go upstairs to my court room the hall for the elevators was crazy packed so I decided to take the stairs... four flights! I was slightly pooped when I got to the top. It was exciting! :)

This was the closest I have ever been to being on a jury. I was in the first seat of the back row (you know, not the people they question in the first round but the second set) and they dismissed half the jury just off the bat and filled in the seats with the other jurors. They picked a jury panel and then went on to pick alternates. I went up and sat in the jury box and answered all my questions to be an alternate... I made it out by the skin of my nose. :) They dismissed me! Which I was thankful, if I was going to be on a jury I would want to actually want to be on the jury not an alternate. Then I got to go home, and here you find me, as I mentioned at the beginning of the post, I am eating lunch! :)

Funny side note, one of the people was named Lipshits... sucks to be him!

Photoshop fun!

I am so enjoying photoshop! Look what I did! :) Yay!

Update: Laundry folded, dishes on their way and bed made! :)

Weekend highlights and Monday morning to-dos

Saturday:

Brad and I hung out in the morning and I went to a photoshop class with Teale Photography in the afternoon. It was a very informational class. I learned a lot about photoshop and am not as fearful to use it now! I have more courage to push buttons, where as before I didn't want to mess up the picture. Then I found, you can't REALLY mess up the picture if you have a copy of the picture... duh! I came home and we ate dinner and went to church.

Sunday:

We woke up and went to church. After church we went grocery shopping. After putting everything away and deciding what to have for lunch (it always takes a while) we ate lunch. After lunch we hung out and talked, it was super fun. Later in the day I went to a mediocre-ly fun Mary Kay party. The company was great, the lady was odd. My hubby hung out with Mo and after the party we took him home. I then played on photoshop some more and Brad sorted baseball cards.

All in all, a very enjoyable weekend!

This morning I found out that a friend of mine got engaged over the weekend! So exciting! I love new love! It is so exciting!

I think today I am going to work on cleaning up the house. Ya know, laundry, make the bed sort of stuff and maybe I will scrapbook some. It's been quite some time since I have! Anyway, off to do the things I need to do and some stuff that is more fun! :)

Boredom

Bored today.

Shopping is fun?

Today I went to my P.E. class. It is getting progressively less painful every class. I don't feel as much like my heart is going to jump out of my chest! That's a plus! :) YAY!

Then I went to my hair appt. and I thought it was going to take a while to get there.... nope. It took like 2 minutes! So, I got there half an hour early! I got to hang out and text people, it wasn't bad. I don't mind sitting by myself! :) I got my hair done and it looks great! :) I'm excited about it! It's been a really long time since I've had my hair done. But something funny, after she finished my hair I realized how bad my eyebrows look! Funny, it's all about perception. I didn't think they looked that bad before! Now I think they look awful! Oh well, a work in progress right?

Then I went home and showered! My mom came over and we chatted for a while, that was fun!

I went shopping with friends afterward. We were shopping for a dress for one of our friends, only to find, she didn't like any of the dresses we suggested. It's ok, just long! She is very modest... which is good, but makes shopping difficult! Cause, well, there really aren't very many "modest" choices for clothes out right now. So, they are too short or low, or see through or.... She finally found a dress that looks great on her and I'm excited for her!

Anyway, I had a really hard time not buying so many things in the store! There was one dress I just loved but we are trying not to spend money. It is SUPER hard to go to the store and not buy anything! Everything I walked by I said, "OOH! I WANT THAT!" But I resisted! Yay!

It was a fun time. A learning experience. Fun nonetheless though! I can't wait to go shopping again!

Pretty hair yay!

Good days and bad days, we all have them

Have you every had one of "those" days? You know the ones I'm talking about... The ones that really aren't that bad, and bad things aren't necessarily happening, its just that you feel kinda icky and crummy. Well, I'm having one of "those" days. I kinda just feel off and icky.

I went out to lunch with family, it was nice. :) I came home and put a roast in the crock pot, did a load of dishes, a load of laundry. I started putting bottles of beer away and dropped two! They shattered ALL over the kitchen. Now, beer is carbonated so when they dropped it catapulted the glass. It was very time consuming to clean up. Besides the fact that I got covered in it and had to shower and change my clothes! Now I have to finish cleaning up my kitchen and prepare for my sister to come over to cook.

I guess it's just a mediocre day. Just life... sometimes life isn't as fun as it is other days.

Pictures

I just went through all the pictures I have taken since I have been an intern for Teale Photography and I found that as I have been practicing taking pictures, it is harder to pick favorites. I like more and more of the pictures I have been taking! I am happy with how they are turning out too and I think that I am finding my place in photography! It's neat! :)

Eww!

So, I went over to visit my mom today, just talk and stuff and my cat was hanging out by the door (where people leave shoes) and I was trying to let her in, but she wouldn't go. So, curious to see what was so exciting about shoes, I moved them. Only to find that there was a baby mouse, not much bigger than an inch, dutifully hiding under the shoes. My cat was all too excited that the mouse was no longer hidden and chased it off the porch.

When I was leaving, I open the door to see on the welcome mat, that same mouse, but now it was dead. Poor mouse... and EWW! My cat thought it would be very nice to leave us a present! So thoughtful of her catching food for us so we can eat.

I was just thinking, that's love! It's a weird animal type of love, but that's what it is, devotion to her master and she is showing that by leaving, what to her, is a treat... Interesting. She gave us her treasure! Unfortunately for her... and us... we didn't want that treasure, so the poor little mouse got to take a trip to the trash. Sad for the mouse...

I love my kitty! I wish I could take her home!

People and Parties

If you say you are going to come, then come! Let your yes be yes and your no be no. I know that sometimes "maybe" is inevitable, especially when money is involved. But if you say you are coming to something, I don't care how inconvenient it is for you, you gosh darn come!

If you have absolutely no intention of coming or think it's pretty sure you can't come, just say no! It's better to say no and not come, or say no and come than to be lame and say yes you're coming and then don't show up! And golly, it is rude to cancel THE DAY OF! Especially when food is involved. The food has already been bought, and in a lot of cases already made!

So, do people think it is polite to say, sorry, I can't come the day of the get together?? Cause it's not. I think the only excuse to cancel the day of an event is if you're sick... or you Mommies, if your baby is sick. Honestly, I think that is the only reason I am ok with. I do my very best to go to things that I say yes to. Most of the time I don't "feel like" going, but I said I would and I am to be a woman of my word. It doesn't matter if something better comes up. When you make a commitment, you are to stick with it.

I guess that's where maybe comes in handy, you're not forced to make any kind of commitment, it is a "safe zone" for everyone who can't handle to make up their mind! Golly! MAKE UP YOUR MIND! It's like those surveys you take, you know, rate your experience 1 - 5 one being hated it and 5 being loved it... you know what the most common response is? 3. 3 is no opinion.... or, maybe! When you say maybe, you are saying, I can't make up my mind. I have no opinion. Wow... I guess maybe having no opinion is easy in some regards. No one to answer to, nothing to pick. No side to stand for. You get to be lukewarm with no ramifications if you come or don't come. But the party planner is left feeling disappointed and let down when in fact you don't come, which is the inevitable truth. Why you ask doesn't the party planner just plan the maybes for no? I guess you could say that she still has optimism in the face of continual disappointment, that MAYBE, just maybe this time the maybes will indeed become yes.

In these situations, when you look at the people who come, you really do see the people who care about you... or maybe it's just the people who have nothing better to do? I guess either way leaves something to be desired.

Friday!

Today I made a "To Do" list and wrote each item on sticky notes. I proceeded to put them on my computer monitor (my time sucker) and since the monitor was covered. I actually did the things I was supposed to do! It is really nice to accomplish what you set out to do!

I cleaned using vinegar and water mixed together. It makes things VERY shiny and doesn't leave an icky residue like a lot of cleaners do! I cleaned the counter tops, the mirrors, the toilet and the floors with the mixture in a spray bottle! It works really well, it smells bad, I had to open windows and turn on the fan so I didn't get sick! :) It was a different experience, I am so used to other cleaners! I think I like it better than all those chemicals!

People suck at driving! It's not even raining! I don't know what is up with that! People on the freeway were going like 55 and 60, I don't know why. They just were! I hate it when that happens. Or what a lot of people have been doing recently, or I have been noticing recently is that people break all the time! They decide they are going too fast, or something, I don't know and just break... for no apparent reason! I dislike it!

There was something else I wanted to say, I forget what it was though! It's ok!

Later! My hubby is home!

Thursday! It's almost Friday! Just a bit closer!

Yesterday I went shopping with my mommy! We had a very good time! First we went out to breakfast with Jess and went to ross! I got new clothes! YAY! Gosh I needed some new stuff! I am very excited about the new outfits I bought!

Today... I went to class. It was fun today. We didn't go outside to run... I like that WAY better! We did cardio inside today! Then weight training. I definately prefer weight training to cardio. I know it's good for my heart and lungs and stuff. But it's more difficult! I am WAY more tired after that and I don't really like it!

Today I am going to a "clothes exchange" so, I am going to go through my clothes. I don't really have things that other people will want. That's ok. Maybe I will donate it instead! :) People need clothes and stuff, right?

I think it is really funny that since I have been "blogging" I have started thinking, how can I blog about this. Like the other day, I was making cookies. It failed. Well, sorta, the cookies taste amazing but didn't turn out in appearence like I wanted them to. I was trying to make a pink heart surrounded by white, you know, how the cookies in the tube look, well, i sorta did it, but then it turned to mush. So I made pink and white swirl, which is cute too, but not what I wanted... oh well, next time!

I enjoy writing!

END :)

It's Tuesday? Where did my Monday go?

I feel like I missed a day, lost it somewhere. Maybe it is cause of the zoo, the zoo is a weekend activity, not a week day. It's weird! I feel like I should have another day somewhere! But, I suppose that it being Tuesday instead of Monday is cool too, cause now I'm a day closer to weekend! Three day weekend! Woo hoo!

I went to class today, it was fairly enjoyable, easy. We did fitness testing, and I found out that I am NOT fit... :) Oh well, supposedly by the end of the class I will be, or at least be better. I am below average in almost every area, except sit-ups, I can do a lot of those! So I feel sufficiently lame! I was hoping I would get better scores! Next time... next time.

Laundry day... well, actually Monday is laundry day, but as previously discussed, I lost Monday. So, Tuesday, becomes Monday, so, LAUNDRY day! Yay! Ha ha, no. But clean clothes are a perk! So, laundry is what I shall do, and dishes and change the sheets and whatever else I have to do! I am enjoying my day though! I am hungry. I get super hungry after working out, I wonder if it has something to do with burning more calories? Maybe... probably!

So, many have a pet peeve of people misspelling words. It is a very common one I would say, I have a different one. I HATE it when people correct other people's spelling. It just makes them feel stupid. I don't like that. Can't you just leave it alone? Does it really matter THAT much? I don't think so. I really just don't think it's that big of a deal. Maybe cause I am CONSTANTLY spelling things wrong. But it doesn't matter, I'm not writting a paper or writing it on a white board saying, this is how you spell ..... fill in the blank. I am just sharing my thoughts. I don't go up to you and tell you that you're saying a word wrong. Isn't it the same thing? I dunno. I guess people will be people. But that's why I have a blog! So I can say what I am thinking! :)

How scary a place if we couldn't share our thoughts. Or feel free to write what we want... I mean, golly, when you sign up to have a blog, it asks you if you are going to have "adult" material. I don't like that. I think that shouldn't be allowed. I don't know though. Can you have freedom in one way but regulations and stuff in another way. To share your thoughts without it being perverse? I guess we live in a perverse world. A world that thinks dirty, disgusting repulsive things, just on a regular basis. I guess in that way, we, as Christians have to stear away from that. It's easy to follow suit, right? To think like everyone else... but should we? Should we fit in with the crowd and think their thoughts? Or should we make an effort not to. That whole, be in the world but not of it. I think that is tremendously over used and because of that has lost some of it's truth, but it still rings true. It is still how things should be. As a Christian, we should live lives apart. Not try to fit in with "the crowd". Hmm.... something to think about..... Another goal. Live in the world, be not of it. I guess that is a lifelong goal, not just a "resolution" something that should constantly be on our minds! On my mind!

I am going through another photoshoot today, I have to pick my favorites. I don't really have them, I shot in manual mode and so, most of them aren't very good :) But that's ok, I'm LEARNING, that's what's important, right? We shall see!

The Zoo!

You know what is interesting, as I have been learning to take pictures with the Teale internship, I have begun to take pride in my pictures. I don't WANT to put the bad pictures up, where as before I didn't care. I think now I see the work it really is to take pictures and that it isn't just "take the picture" there really is an art behind it. It's hard to take good pictures! Anyone can just take a picture, you have to put effort in to make it a good picture, or an artistic picture!

We went to the zoo today, I got to hang out with three of my favorite people! It was a very good time, we walked around and talked, I took lots of pictures! Here are just a few! I wish it was easier to post pictures on this site!

Today there are a lot of things I need to do, but haven’t done… I hate that. I really enjoy writing though! It is relaxing and it releases stuff, energy and all my thoughts! I didn’t realize how much I really talk, in my head that is. It is a release to type it all out! That way, I don’t NEED to talk so much cause I can write it out and that it super neat to me! I really love just venting; I guess everyone needs, “that” whatever that is. I think for me that writing can and is definitely that! I think that photography just might be that for me too, especially when I get good at it! I can express myself in my photography, my emotion and feelings.

It's Friday!

Today is Friday, Fridays are notoriously great, cause it is pretty much almost weekend. Today is my 5 month anniversary! So fun and exciting! I can't believe it has been 5 months already! That is crazy and insane! It has been awesome though! I wouldn't trade any of it for anything.

Today I have determined is going to be a good day! I have a few unfinished projects that I need to complete, that is another one of my goals, to complete tasks I have started. You know, it's so easy to start something, I always have good intentions of finishing but I forget, or get tired of it, or it gets hard, or or or... So projects that need to be finished, include but aren't limited to these:

• Finish Lucy's scrapbook, it was supposed to be for her year birthday... hmm...
• Finish going through all those stacks of paper that everyone has, you know, reciepts, school stuff, etc. etc. etc.
• This is one I want to start, I have this old, ugly frame. It is from probably 20 years ago or more, it belonged to my great grandma. The frame in itself has absolutely no sentimental value, so, I was just thinking I would throw it away, or try to give it away, but here is my goal, I want to sand off the color, repaint it something pretty and try to sell it, or if it turns out horrendous, then give it away or throw it away, and that's what I was gonna do in the first place!
• I need to fold laundry, however, that is a constant goal, I feel as though laundry really never goes away, I tell my husband, why can't we just not wear clothes, then I won't have to do laundry. Hmm.... I think I'll pass, but it would work!

There are numerous other smaller, less pressing things that need to get done. There is the daily stuff, dishes, laundry, dusting, pick up our junk, clean off the table, clean the kitchen take out the trash, clean up the bedroom, clean the bathroom..... and the list continues. And golly, I feel like it always continues, it never stops, and I mean never. And I don't even have kids! I can't imagine what it will be like to have MORE to do! WOW!

Regardless, I do want children, lots of them! :) I think kids are great!

I miss my husband! He's at work, doing a great job! Making lots of money so we can live! He's wonderful!

So I am an intern for Teale Photography, it's a really fun gig! I absolutely enjoy the taking pictures of other people, scenery, and pretty much anything that catches my eye! I want to carry my camera with me everywhere! But it is so stinkin' heavy! So, I don't, but pretty much every time I go out there is something I wish I had my camera for! I absolutely love photography, and I'm learning! Slowly but I am. We did a photo shoot of a couple Meghann and Jon, they were super cute together, very willing to interact and pose for pictures! Here are a few favorites that I took of them...

So, anyway, I am off to fold a mound of laundry... ick! Maybe watch a movie though. :) We shall see!

P.S. It was VERY hard to put the pictures up and still they didn't turn out how I wanted them to... I don't understand!

This is me...

This is my opening post, I plan on using this to vent how I am feeling, to document things that happen in my life, important and not important. Well, important to me! I plan to share how I am feeling and not care so much what you all think. I know that kinda sound mean, but that is one of my goals for the new year, not care so much what people think. I think that people put so much emphasis on what others think of them and their perception of life that people neglect who they are. They are trying to be what they "think" they should be, or what they perceive is how things should be. I am going to change that in myself. I no longer want to care what people think of me!

So, I was driving to class listening to the radio, not even crazy stuff, just country and I felt my spirit was starting to be critical, angry at other drivers and irritated with the world, I mean, ya, that happens when you don't sleep well, which I didn't last night. So, I changed the station and started listening to Christian music, I know this sounds silly, but my attitude changed. It was like my whole perception changed and I was able to just let the stupid drivers drive and didn't care. It was weird and a really cool thing! I mean, golly, just a few seconds and a new perspective on everything. You know the saying, garbage in, garbage out. I think I may always drive with Christian music from now on, it really does set the pace for your day!

I ran/walked a mile and a half today and it took me 21 minutes and 5 seconds, I thought I was going to DIE! But guess what, I didn't! I made it all the way and I feel pretty proud of myself, cause even though I finished third to last, I realized something, it isn't about how well the other students in the class do, it matters how well I do, ME! I don't normally walk around, let alone a mile and a half solid through! So I think, I'm pretty stinkin' awesome! :)

On my way home today I was cruising down the street going WAY too fast, and I didn't realize, I looked down at my speedometer and saw how fast I was going, I slowed to the speed limit and not even fifty yards further down the street, a cop car was stationed, waiting for speeders. All I could think was THANK YOU GOD! I was astonished and amazed, cause normally I wouldn't have slowed down. It was awesome! So, I get to a stop light and stop.... obviously, and I look back in my mirror and a car is getting pulled over! I was so thankful! I could hardly believe it! That could have been me! God is so good! I think in the business of life we forget to stop and say, thanks God! That was really cool of you! Ya know, I think we should! Golly! If He cares so much about me to have me slow down, gosh! He cares about me, and you, SO much! More than I remember sometimes. I guess sometimes I just need that, "Hey You" moment!

That's my day so far... summing up... I hate running!