Life can be rough sometimes

You know that feeling, when you are just bummed. Maybe there isn't a reason, or maybe there is but it's not REALLY big enough to be THAT bummed about? Well, that's how I feel. I am trying not to let things bother me. But they just do, there is no getting around it. It just sucks! If you're wondering what sucks, it's the fact that for four (too long) years I have been preparing to transfer to a state school to finish my degree well guess what? I don't get to go. Yup. I was told no.

Yes, don't count your chicks before they hatch, etc, etc, etc. Well, I thought I was a shoe-in. No doubt in my mind. Guess there should have been doubt. Yes God has a plan for it, yes He is preparing me for something else. I know that... I mean I know that, it's just really hard to see past this annoying and frustrating time. It is very difficult to see past what I want and what I had planned for my life and let God's plan wash over me.

I want to just be in tears all day, my heart is sad, I am discouraged and not exactly sure how or where my life is to go now. What I am supposed to do. I can still go to school. I can find another school. But will I just be trying to fix it? Where am I supposed to go? Rhetorical questions for you, but life questions for me. My heart is heavy and my life is headed in a different direction than I had thought for the past several years... hmm... life.