So, it's been a week. Today is officially a week. Boy has it been a hard one too. I'm fine one second and totally distraught the next. It seems to come in waves, like Saturday I was fine but Sunday I was not. It seems to have a lot to do with how I wake up in the morning and my perspective that day. You know, I can see God in it. He had it all worked out exactly how it was supposed to be. Mom came to the appt. with me cause Brad couldn't, I wouldn't have been able to do it myself.
As I think back, God was preparing me way from the beginning, in the back of my head it was like I knew. Like He was trying to warn me almost, to get me ready for what was to come. It still sucks and I'm still sad... kind of a lot, but I can move on and in 3 months, we are going to try again.
God has put on my heart to be a mom, to raise children for Him, as far back as I can remember that has been my goal. And I just don't feel like I would want that with such intensity if He didn't have that for me. I know He is going to work it out. I'm not sure what for, or why I have to go through this but there is a plan, there always is a plan. And I know He has the best in store for me.
I agree! I know it's been rough, but God does have a plan for us and He will complete it! I love you so much and we will get through this. You are so special to me my darling! I'll see you later!
ReplyDeleteDid you hear Dave's message last week? Satan tempts us to bring us down while God tests us to build us up. There is a reason why God allowed this to happen even if that may not be clear now. God is building you, molding you, sharpening you. He still wants to bless you with a family and when that time comes it will be right. You will be a great mom and that has not changed. Maintain your right state of mind and lean on God. He indeed has the best in store for you.
ReplyDeleteThanks Justin! We missed last weeks message. I appreciate that a lot!
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