The Diet...

So, I started the South Beach Diet on Monday. I thought it was going to be hard, but nothing could have prepared me for the awful way I felt the first 3 days. I thought I might as well just die. I couldn't take it, I literally felt sick, the new food, the complete ending of the foods I love.

Well, lets just say it sucked! I was SO exhausted I could barely keep my eyes open at 9 O'clock! I wanted to go to sleep at 4! I was so tired, and I had such a headache I could barely see strait. I wanted to just give up. But I didn't, I got some encouragement from a friend and knew it was going to be ok, and it was going to get better, I just had to make it through the sugar and starch withdrawals.

I REALLY, HONESTLY wanted to quit, I know it seems that I am being over dramatic, but it was bad. It was literally all I could think about, I was dreaming about South Beach food and the food I couldn't eat. Last night I dreamt that I cheated on my diet and had a PB&J Sandwich. And I don't even really like PB&J! I was literally consumed by the feeling of deprivation.

All this to say, today, I feel great, honestly great. My stomach is getting used to the different food, I feel more awake, I don't have a headache or stomach ache. I made it through! YAY! Now I feel as though I can do it! You know, I even worked out this morning and wasn't exhausted afterward and it was one of the hardest workouts I've done. I was fine. THAT was weird. I guess the food that I'm eating is really fueling me better than I thought. Cool. Tonight we are having Steak... not so bad huh!

Sad, disappointed but was expecting it

So remember how i was supposed to start being a Nanny for an infant in the coming weeks, well, it has been removed from my to do list.

So, here's what happened, I woke up this morning to a text, which said that her sister just found out she is pregnant and she quit her job. Her sister offered to watch the baby. And she is going to do it. I understand the situation, of course you'd rather a relative watch your kid over someone else. But, it is kinda lame, she and I had been talking about me doing it before he was even born. Well, oh well.

In all truthfulness, I knew it wasn't going to happen, I don't know how, I could just tell, I knew something was going to happen. Maybe it was God preparing me, I'm not sure, but it's alright. You know, I was worried about taking the job I have because I had promised to watch this baby. I even considered turning it down out of loyalty. But I didn't, I figured, if it came down to it I could quit my job and just be a Nanny. Turns out that won't be necessary. This is more stable and easily more flexible too. For instance, if I ever got sick, it wouldn't only be inconvenient for me but for her too. I know it's for the better. Less stress now.

I was very concerned about how I was going to get everything done being so busy. Now, not the problem. I guess God knows the whole time! Now I can see I shouldn't have been worried.

On a different note, I got a yellow shelf at the rummage sale a couple saturdays ago. Yesterday I painted it black and now it is hanging in my bedroom with a picture from my wedding and several candles, it is very nice! I'm pleased!

Today I have a lot of cleaning up to do. My living room is kind of a mess as well as the dining room and the bedroom. Off to make my house clean! It's crazy how fast things accumulate when you are busy! Certain things become less of a priority. Cleanliness needs to be higher on my list! :) Anyway, have a good day!

Cinnamon rolls are tricky!

So, whenever I search for Recipes on the internet I come across blogs, blogs of what people thought of the recipe, blogs for made up recipes, etc. It has inspired me. I very much like cooking and I feel like sharing.

I made cinnamon rolls today...

Well to start you are supposed to read the recipe through to make sure you have all the ingredients BEFORE you start... I neglected that part.

So, I have this recipe for cinnamon rolls, and I start making them, it calls for 4 cups of flour, I had like 3 1/2... So, less floury, more sticky dough. Also, you are supposed to let the dough rise for AN HOUR! I didn't read that part at first and I thought you could just go from dough to baking... nope. Well, it also turns out it needed 4 packages of yeast... 4! I used 2. Now I know why it called for 4, they didn't rise as much as I would have liked.

Anyway, while I was slicing the dough tube into chunks it was more turning into cinnamon globs. THEN I remembered that people use floss to cut cheese and I though, hmm... So I went and got some floss, it worked WONDERFULLY! Yay! cinnamon rolls! Actual rolls not globs... awesome!

Also, now I know why you are supposed to put the rolls close together, because when they have a lot of room between them, they expand O U T instead of up. So, they are kind of flat cinnamon rolls.

This recipe only calls for 2 1/2 tablespoons of cinnamon but 4 cups of sugar total. They should be called sugar rolls! Cause that is most definately what they are.

All this to say, lots of work, 3 hours of work to be precise, but well worth it. They are very yummy! Even flat and even globby.

Oh, and the recipe is enough to feed an army for breakfast! 24 rolls. That's a lot of cinnamon rolls! Anyway, summing up, have enough of the ingredients, floss works great to cut things and be hungry.

Here's the recipe:

Hiya!

Hiya! Lucy says Hiya now, cause of me! Isn't that awesome, I have rubbed off on her, I just think that is so cool!

Haha, I was just reading one of my old blogs and realized, I use almost no punctuation. :) I bet you have already figured that one out, but it made me laugh. I never have been that great at sentence structure. Well, I know how a sentence is supposed to sound and I can edit other people's papers, but for some reason I can't be distant when I read my own. I guess that is because I know how I MEANT to say it. But fortunately for me, it's my blog, so, it's OK if I want to write and entire paragraph with one period and no commas. Haha, THAT would be funny!

Anyway, I'm feeling better today, still not 100%, so I skipped P.E. but still went to work. Now I'm tired. I feel as though I could nap for hours! Sick will do that to ya. I really HATE being sick. Yup, definately one of the worst things.

I am going to start being a Nanny to a newborn starting in two weeks! I am so very excited, and nervous too! It's been a long time since I have encountered a newborn, let alone a baby that small, just over 5 pounds! Wow! I'm excited though, should be fun! And I am going to start babysitting on fridays too! Wow, I'm gonna be working 5 days a week! Still not full time, but that's kinda a lot in comparison to what I am used to.

Hey, but guess what I found out, when I am gone, and my house is clean, it stays clean! Unfortunate downside, when I am gone and my house is dirty... it stays dirty. So, the way I see it is if I clean my house on monday, providing I keep up with it throughout the week, it SHOULD stay clean till friday, right? I have yet to find out. Though, I am getting better at keeping up on stuff.

Until later ya'll!

Sick = Ick!

Yup, I'm sick, haven't been in a very long time! It's lame and stuff! I have a stuffy nose, post nasal drip, a sore throat and fever. Could be a sinus infection, or maybe just a cold. Either way, not digging it very much! It's oober lame!

So, here I am, in bed. Resting, hoping I will feel better enough tomorrow to go to work! Otherwise I will have to call in, I don't feel well! And, I don't wanna do that. We shall see. Had a photoshoot yesterday. Probly was a bad plan to go, should have been resting, oh well. What's done is done! Maybe I'll post some pictures!

So, I was just thinking, you know how when your dating, it is about 6 months before you really know the person, to where they let their guard down and show you who they are. I have always just limited that to dating. But, a relationship is still a relationship, right? I mean, a new friendship is still just as fragile as a dating one. So, all that to say, I bet that the 6 month rule applies to friendships too! I mean, to be careful how much you invest in the friendship in the first 6 months, just as you would in a dating relationship. I really feel that would save some heartache.

Also, don't give up so easy. Friendships are work, just like any other relationship, it takes both people to try for it to work.

The feeling of completion... awesome!

I finished the frame I've been talking about! YAY!

Before:

After:

It doesn't even look like the same frame huh! I haven't decided what to do with it yet, maybe I will give it to good will or something, Maybe I will frame something in it... probly not that one. :) It's nice huh! You suppose I could sell it? Maybe huh! Anyway, I have completed a task! Yay!

Now I want to make an apron, or maybe I want to make a quilt and sell it... hmm, I like that!

Life Realizations

So, I have been doing a lot of thinking lately, thinking about things that normally I don't ponder. And I have come to this conclusion, I want to be a different person, not that I want a different life, but that I want to be a better version of myself. I have spent so many years caring about what people think of me, and how I can be the person they want me to be. I have decided that I no longer want to be that person, I care yes, I mean a little caring is important so that you aren't disrupting social norms, but to live life like it matters.

I mean, this is it, you only get one chance at life, and once you are dead, you don't get a second chance, so shouldn't we want to make our lives count? To make our mark on life instead of letting life happen to us? The mundane, everyday things really start to add up and make life seem bleak, but be of good cheer, those aren't the things to dwell on, there are tons of awesome things out there that we take for granted.

Take for instance, the Apostles, I was reading in Acts this morning and it was like the stories were coming alive, the disciples really understood what it meant to walk like Jesus. People used to lay in the road that Peter traveled just so they could have his shadow fall on them so they could be healed, that is the SAME Jesus I serve, that Jesus is available to me... to ME! And you! The Holy Spirit in power is alive for us today, we just have to live it and take it. Peter wasn't a special guy, he wasn't a speaker, but it says, the Holy Spirit came upon him and he began to preach and thousands came to believe in Jesus! How cool is that!

I wanna have that, I wanna know Jesus like that! Growing up in the church I definitely has it's perks, but in any religion there is one problem with being born into it, there isn't the real, on your knees, this is what I want to believe moment. It's more like, yep, that sounds good... And golly, I love that I grew up in the church and know the Bible stories, but you know when you watch the same funny movie over and over and over and you can recite every line? And eventually it looses some of the funny? It's kinda like that, when your a kid and you hear that Jonah was swallowed by a big fish you say, WOW! When you hear it now, you say, yup, heard that one... it looses it's power, you become tainted and dull. What was once powerful and an awesome story of God's power has become, just another Bible story.

I guess that's why Jesus says, to become like a child. I mean, it has something to it, when I told my Sunday school kids that Jesus was arrested and killed, they all said, "But why?" "That's not fair!" When as an adult you say, yup, that's just what happened, it has lost it's power. But why? Cause we have let it.

We have faded into our lives little things that maybe don't seem like much but they corrupt our minds and our hearts. "It's just a little nudity" "It's just a little language" "It's just a short sex scene" "I'm not really listening to the music, just the beat". These are all lies that we have told ourselves to make excuses for doing things we shouldn't be doing. I don't want to make excuses anymore, I want to be a different person. The world is a hard place to live, so much profanity being thrown at you from every angle, it is perverse, and as Christians we need to separate ourselves from it. We should not try to be as close to the world as possible, but as far away from them as possible.

People so eagerly put stickers on their car, but does it mean anything? What is the point?? So that non-Christians can hate the "Christian" that just cut them off? Isn't that using the Lord's name in vain? Using Jesus for your own benefit, to look like a good Christian and then shaming His name by your driving?

All this to say, I want to matter, I want my life to matter, when I die I want my kids to say, "Mom really knew Jesus!" That is what I want! I want that little line between when I was born and when I die to be significant.

Don't you?

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I don't really know what to write, I am feeling kinda bla today. The weather doesn't help any. I dislike when it is gloomy outside.

I ate breakfast this morning before work and ate a couple snacks at work, though I didn't get to eat lunch till like 3:30 when I got home, so I feel icky! My tummy is all topsy turvy... ick.

I like my job and I like that I don't have to sit still the whole time, he has me run around and do stuff outside the office, which sometimes I like but other times I want to just sit... oh well, I am happy I have a job.

My husband has a half day tomorrow, that should be fun! He's coming home soon, I am excited to see him!

I am going to be teaching a friend of mine how to quilt, I am also excited about that! She is a massage therapist and she said she will trade massages for lessons, yay! I need a massage... bad! I'm very excited about that situation!

Hmm.... I don't feel good. :( I have to go make dinner.

Update: I started working on that frame I told you about a while ago, I started sanding off the old paint so I can repaint it. It was more work than anticipated and all the fumes made my throat hurt so I took a break. I also started going through all my wedding pictures and picking favorites. I have to go through them again and probly again after that to narrow it down even more! I still haven't found a scrapbook that I like, we shall see.
Someone suggested that I print photo books instead of scrapbooking. She was saying how it is so much better and so much less time. But it's not personal... right? I don't know, we shall see. I am not ready to give up on scrapbooking yet.

Anyway, have an awesome day!