I feel as though I am such a downer. No one wants to read about someone being sad. Well that's what I am. I sorta feel like I should pretend, put on a happy face and pretend like it's all OK. But it's not OK, I don't feel OK. I feel sad. Like I'm in a fog, like those Claritin commercials before they remove the film. I am sorta in a daze. And, this morning I baby sat and that was challenging, all those children all those mommies.
And I'm tired, weirdly tired, possibly the sudden drop in hormones, my body trying to get back to normal, but I just want to sleep. I am so out of it, I am forgetting my keys, forgetting things, just feeling overall kinda lousy. I look forward to feeling better. Today is a down day.
People like reading about your life. If you're in a down period then you're in a down period. We'd rather you write honestly than put on a facade. You went through something that no one should ever have to experience. But we as Christians know that God has purpose in everything and that yours will eventually shine through. And eventually you'll pull out of this feeling and into a new and joyous one. And we'll be here when that time comes, too.
ReplyDeleteJustin is right.
ReplyDeleteI love you my Lizzy, and I am so sorry about this whole situation and I pray every day that you'll feel better. Just like we were talking about today, maybe it is just time. I don't know. But I know you're strong and wonderful and you will get through this. God loves you so much and so do all your friends.
I agree with Justin, too. You write what you need to because it;s your life. I appreciate you talking about how you feel going through this process because it;s not easy at all. I know things will be better and you will be blessed with a child when the time is right. I really think you are courageous for posting this.
ReplyDeleteThanks guys, that really helps! You rock!
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