New Blog

I started a blog for Elizabunny Creations, check it out! :)

www.ElizabunnyCreations.blogspot.com

Happy New Year! I hope it is blessed!

Christmas time

You know, it doesn't really feel like Christmas time, I am not sure why, everything in my life has been SO busy, I am constantly sewing, I am nearly done with my Aunts apron. I already gave the Mommy and Me aprons to my aunt and cousin. They turned out really cute but I forgot to take pictures... lame. Oh well. I already ran out of business cards! 80 all gone, that's amazing to me! I have to get some more. I am really starting to get my name out there and I think that is really cool! It's now just a matter if after Christmas people are still going to want to buy stuff. Cause around Christmas time, people want lots. But it is really helping. All those Dr. bills are really mean and add up so fast! Every time I get one it's like a slap in the face. Fortunately we should only get one more and then be done. Thank goodness! So selling is really helping us financially especially when we have to spend so much money on other people! Besides our bills.

I really don't know how some people do it. How can people rationalize spending over $1000 on Christmas presents? I know a couple that spend that much money every Christmas and there are only 3 in their immediate family. But each sibling, parent and grandparent they spend $100 at least per person. That's just crazy! Especially because they are struggling financially. That just doesn't make sense at all in my mind. If you don't have money, can't you just say, we don't have money and not spend crazy amounts on people? It's weird to me, something about Christmas makes people do stupid things. I guess I was never raised that way. It wasn't about the presents. I mean $100 gosh, that's a lot of money to me!

We decorated our tree yesterday! :) It looks so pretty, it is an artificial tree that I got at a rummage sale for $5 last year! I'm a good shopper! :) It's a little bent, but who cares! Five Bucks! So, it's all decorated and pretty, I'm going to wrap presents tonight and I think that will help me feel Christmas-y. Even Christmas music doesn't make me feel festive this year. It's weird. Though I am excited about what I am getting. It's practical stuff, but things change as you get older. I don't want a doll, I want an ironing board! :) Ha ha, it's funny to me how all of a sudden I'm an adult and desire adult things. I'm OK with it though!

I'm happy.

The song in my head...

Felt good on my lips:

Said her name was a hand me down name
From the side of a family that long ago came
Over here on a boat from somewhere in Spain
Sounded to me just a little bit strange, I guess.
But I have to admit
It felt good on my lips.

She tipped the DJ to play her favorite song
A Spanish little number that was a rockin' on strong
She took my by the seat and said lets go and get it on
By the second chorus I was singing right along with it
I don’t know what it meant
But it felt good on my lips.

Oh oh oh I wanna go crazy
You can go crazy too
Oh oh oh I wanna go crazy
Wanna go crazy with you

Everybody sayin' whoaaa how sweet it is
(whoaa oooh)
Whoaaa, yeah it felt good on my lips
She ordered us a drink
It was a purple kind of pink
She said it’s got a shot of a little bit of everything
Mello yellow umbrella for a fella like me
It was just a bit mello for me to be seen with
But I took a sip
Yeah it felt good on my lips

Oh oh oh I wanna go crazy
You can go crazy too
Oh oh oh I wanna go crazy
Wanna go crazy with you

Everybody sayin whoaaa how sweet it is
(whoaa oooh)
Whoaaa oh, yeah it felt good on my lips
When the lights came on and they hollered last call
I was busy getting lost in her cherry lip gloss
In a little corner both i dont like no talk
She leaned in close and gave me one long and wet
A goodnight goodbye kiss
And It felt good on my lips

Whooaa oh how sweet it is
(whoaa oooh)
Whoaaaa oooooh (oooh)
Whooaa oh how sweet it is
(whoaa oooh)
Whoa ooooh, yeah it felt good on my lips

I'm no good at writting titles!

So, I did really pretty well at the craft fair on Sunday, I brought home almost $100 and lots of people want me to make them special orders! I am SO excited and I feel really good about it. It really boosted my confidence and I really had a good time, I think I will definitely do it next year!

I am feeling good, I did the dishes and went grocery shopping yesterday. I know those are little things to you, but they are big things for me, I want to do the things I used to do, I want to make dinner, I'm tired of eating pasta cause that's what Brad can make (He has been absolutely wonderful and I appreciate him making an effort and making us food when I just haven't felt up to it, I am so thankful for him!) and having stuff be everywhere and nothing being done. But it was all I could do to just get through the day, those weren't important. Now, it's like they are again... I care again! It's little victories I guess that make all the difference. I feel like I'm starting to change again. The sky isn't as gloomy anymore and I kinda wanna cry, it excites me and makes me happy that I am starting to be better.

It's the little things you take for granted, I cut up an apple this morning. :)

So, you know the song "It felt good on my lips" its a country song (not dirty) and it's stuck in my head! I only know the first verse too, so it is like a broken record, the same verse over and over and over!

I'm almost done with the aprons for my aunt and cousin, they turned out really good! I am excited to give them to them. Hopefully they like them! Anyway, Christmas is right around the corner! We haven't decorated anything... so sad! We are going to do it this week for sure!

I'm going to start a blog for Elizabunny Creations, stay tuned :)
Have a great day!

Dress Form

You know, no one knows what that is, it's one of those foam bodies you can display clothes and stuff on! :) I have had my status for like a week asking for one and the only comment I got was someone telling me it's too cold to wear a dress. Ha! People are silly. But I still need one!

I am almost finished making headbands and I LOVE how they turned out! I am so excited to hand out cards and get my stuff out there. I want to sell out, that is my goal, though I don't know how well it will work out. Yesterday a friend and I made a board with all the prices and stuff, it looks SO good! I am so excited! Brad's boss just bought a blanket and apron, a good start to selling I think! I am sewing like you wouldn't even believe, I am making aprons for my aunt and cousin, two blankets for my nieces and something for my mom and possibly my sister! I am wondering if after all this is done there is going to be a crash, you know like after finals or after planning a big party or wedding there is that post chaotic blues. I am really hoping that won't happen. We will see.

Oh, and update on me... I am well, it's still challenging sometimes but it's like every 4 days now. :) Haha, I feel like that's so silly, like for someone to say, I'm only sad every 4 days, wouldn't you think that's a lot? I guess perspective. From every day to every other day to every 4 days, I feel like that's pretty good! :) I am feeling better about myself, about my life and where I am. Having as goal is really good, even if it's just short term. It gives me something to look forward to and I think I needed that!

Thanksgiving Weekend...

It's been good, I am feeling good about myself the last few days. I am going to try to sell stuff for a craft fair on next Sunday and I am very excited about it. I can't wait to see if I can sell stuff. I would really love to sell some! I am making headbands too. I look forward to doing it and I am so thrilled to get my name out there. I took pictures of all my product and am going to make a page for it. I really like having something to do. It really helps having a project to take my mind off everything.

This weekend

So...
I baby sat my nieces this weekend, well, I team sat, my mom assisted in the afternoons. But it was fun! I'm tired, glad their mom is coming home today but I really enjoyed it. And I really think that spending all that time with them helped me feel better. About myself, about where I am in life and what I want to do with my life. They are really awesome kids! The sermon this week was really good too, the pastor talked about letting God bless you where you are, the situation you are in RIGHT NOW and that was neat, that God, the creator of the universe wants to bless me... me!

I know it's still not all better, there are still lots of times that are challenging, but I know that it's going to be OK. And that makes me happy. I'm starting to feel happy again, and that makes me want to cry. Weird huh! I am such a girl. And I can't wait to have my own babies to come home to. I know that is what I am supposed to be, some people are doctors or lawyers, I'm supposed to be a mommy! :) And you know what? I am going to be darn it!

So I don't wanna cry every second of the day anymore, it's about every other day or every two days. People still want to hug me every time they see me. I am sorta dreading thanksgiving for that reason. Though food should be good! I don't look in the mirror any more and feel like I look horrible. That makes me want to cry too. I guess I haven't really felt myself for a long time, I guess I've just accepted it as how it is and it's starting to change. It's good. God is good, even when everything else kinda sucks.

Today... hmm

I feel as though I am such a downer. No one wants to read about someone being sad. Well that's what I am. I sorta feel like I should pretend, put on a happy face and pretend like it's all OK. But it's not OK, I don't feel OK. I feel sad. Like I'm in a fog, like those Claritin commercials before they remove the film. I am sorta in a daze. And, this morning I baby sat and that was challenging, all those children all those mommies.

And I'm tired, weirdly tired, possibly the sudden drop in hormones, my body trying to get back to normal, but I just want to sleep. I am so out of it, I am forgetting my keys, forgetting things, just feeling overall kinda lousy. I look forward to feeling better. Today is a down day.

Food

I'm making cheesecake. Pumpkin Cheesecake, I hope it's yummy!

The pan leaked and melted butter dripped all over the bottom of the oven, thus filling the house with butter smelling smoke. Eww!

Tuesday... That's all, it's tuesday

So, its been a challenging week. I've cried 3 times in the last 3 days, which is kind of a lot. It's less than it was but I thought I was done with crying... guess not. This weekend I got the bill for all the medical stuff, that made me cry, not cause of the money (though it could make someone cry) but because of the reason for the bill. And things keep coming up, like my cousin talking about strollers and the couple with the baby in front of me at church, or talking about moving. It just sucks that something I wanted so bad was taken away. I know the Lord has a plan for it, I just wish it was easier.

So, I  have carpal tunnel, typing doesn't really help the situation, but I have a wrist brace on. You never think about how much you use something till its not there. For instance, how often do you use your wrist, a lot! When you use your keys to open a door, to open a door, to wash your hands, to type, write, open anything really, bottles, jars, etc. To answer the phone, to text, to pick things up, to get dressed, do your hair, make-up and SO many other things, just everyday things! It's amazing really!

Anyway, I sorta feel like I'm falling apart, and it's tiring!

So many thoughts, such a long week...

So, it's been a week. Today is officially a week. Boy has it been a hard one too. I'm fine one second and totally distraught the next. It seems to come in waves, like Saturday I was fine but Sunday I was not. It seems to have a lot to do with how I wake up in the morning and my perspective that day. You know, I can see God in it. He had it all worked out exactly how it was supposed to be. Mom came to the appt. with me cause Brad couldn't, I wouldn't have been able to do it myself.

As I think back, God was preparing me way from the beginning, in the back of my head it was like I knew. Like He was trying to warn me almost, to get me ready for what was to come. It still sucks and I'm still sad... kind of a lot, but I can move on and in 3 months, we are going to try again.

God has put on my heart to be a mom, to raise children for Him, as far back as I can remember that has been my goal. And I just don't feel like I would want that with such intensity if He didn't have that for me. I know He is going to work it out. I'm not sure what for, or why I have to go through this but there is a plan, there always is a plan. And I know He has the best in store for me.

Today is Monday

Today I slept a long time, I was SO tired today for some reason. Then I felt sick all day, I pretty much laid around all day. I threw up for the first time for real since I got pregnant... not enjoyable.

Then we had family pictures and they weren't terrible, but I totally could have done better. Unfortunately for me, I can't very well take pictures of my family with me in them. :)

I'm thinking that I should start taking pictures again. Charge something pretty good too. Cause we paid around $200 for something like 10 pictures for about an hour. That is SIGNIFICANTLY more than I charge for way less pictures than I would give.

Watching lost first season... kinda like it!

8 weeks 2 days

So, I've been reading about the size of the baby, how it's growing and how it's making things change. It is very exciting! I am so excited about each transition. Who woulda thunk that being pregnant could be enjoyable? I guess God knew what He was doing.

So, I haven't blogged in quite some time and I also have been a super slacker on taking pictures. I really want to get into the habit of taking pictures and doing something with my time, I'm considering making baby things, to sell. Cause I don't want to make a whole bunch of gender neutral stuff. That's boring. I am so looking forward to finding out the gender!

I never wanted to be that person that when they had kids or were pregnant that's all they talked about, I never understood that until now. It's because that is literally ALL you can think about, your stomach is upset, have a headache, etc, etc. Things are CONSTANTLY swirling around and all relating to the baby.

Brad's gonna pick up a crib today, it's FREE! Best kind, hopefully we like it.

Back to pictures, so I took pictures of Lucy's birthday party and our anniversary trip. Which was super fun! I am so glad we went on vacation! So, I'm thinking I will post some good ones of those, I just have to set aside the time to edit them and go through them all.    

I STILL haven't taken pictures of all of my product. I fail at completing tasks. I really want to get better at that. I am nervous to start though, afraid of failing I guess. But in a sense I have already done that, so I guess, what's to loose?

Today starts my weekend, I am going to an estate sale tomorrow, should be fun, maybe I will find something good!

We are going to go bed shopping again, I am so tired of my back hurting! The only good sleep is when I'm alone in the bed, which is only for about an hour or so.

Anyway, enough of my spazziness... have a great day all!

Being Pregnant...

Makes me tired... so tired! I don't feel like eating anything and my stomach constantly is upset. Everything I read says it gets better, I can't wait for that. 4 more weeks! I'm so excited to feel better!

It's a Tuesday

So, no new couch... so sad.
We went and sat on it for about an hour and my back started really hurting. I don't know what to do, I don't want to spend 600 or 1000 dollars on a couch I can't sit on for an extended period of time, I don't want it huge, but moderately elegant with practicality. I think we decided that we would look into getting me my own chair for when my back is out or I'm particularly uncomfortable. That way I will have the support I need and Brad can get a couch he's comfortable in and is pretty good for me. He is a lot easier to please than I am. It seems the couch I would need doesn't exist. What's up with that.

So, we still have our very uncomfortable couch handed down from a friend of Brad's aunt. We will get a new couch... someday.

I have completed 3 headbands and one gift bag. I love them all, I am excited about this new season in my life, no school, work and being creative. I love it. I love having something to do with my time, something good and that keeps me motivated. God has a purpose, I know He does and I feel as though pieces of it are coming together.

Picture one... Day one

So, this is a picture of my head... obviously, right? Well More specifically it is a picture of my headband, a headband that I made for myself because in the search for the perfect headband, it doesn't exist. Nope, it isn't there, they are ugly or too flimsy or too tight. So to solve all my problems, I have created the "perfect fit" headband. It's great and I will be selling headbands of all kinds starting at $7. That's what you'd pay at Walmart for an ugly one! :) I love it and I hope you do too!



So... update, we think we found our couch. And we are feeling a little pressured to buy it because their no sales tax gimmick ends tomorrow! Tomorrow! AHH! So, it's a sectional and it fits... barely, but it will give us so much more seating which will be great for when people come over! We have yet to fully decide, we are going to go spend the afternoon sitting on it tomorrow.

We think we also found a bed, it's a little expensive, at Jerome's and it is one of those beds that only they offer so we can't even buy it somewhere else. It's super comfortable but again, we must go and lay on it for a long time before I can decide to spend that kind of money.

So, that's how things are going for now.

I am working on my facebook page for "Elizabunny Creations" check it out and "like" it. I need 25 likes before they will let me change the URL. It's not done yet. I still have to take and post pictures of everything, but it is definitely in progress! SO exciting! :)

I'm feeling Inspired...

So, I was reading a blog of a girl who makes a new dress every day. She calls it New dress a day and I have been inspired to do something. Something that excites me and will give me a small goal to accomplish every day. So, I have decided to do "picture a day". To take a picture of something every day.

I'm, thinking it will be a cool way to not only use my camera often, but also to figure out what is worth taking a picture of. We shall see. And to be honest, it will probably only be a picture every couple days. But still, I am excited about it!


Check her blog out:
http://newdressaday.wordpress.com/?blogsub=confirming#subscribe-blog

Progress

I am so excited about the new developments, I am currently working on a Facebook page for "Elizabunny Creations" as well as business cards.

I am looking forward to seeing how it all pans out! I am really liking what it looks like so far. So much left to do though and I am looking forward to finishing it!

I still have to take pictures of all my products individually.


We are going on vacation in a couple weeks! I am so so so excited about it!

I am finally feeling that I have purpose again, direction, and that rocks!

Posting

Appearently, my consistency in writting is about once a month. I guess I feel well, like there isn't much exciting going on in my life that anyone would want to read about. However, I do feel as though there have been several developments in my life recently.

My To-Do list for a while:

1. Apply for a loan (we are going to try to get into a housing lottery)
2. Find a school to attend that offers online and on campus classes that is local
3. Create page for "Elizabunny Creations"
4. Take pictures of product especially by "Elizabunny Creations"
5. Create business cards
6. Purchase a new bed
7. Purchase a new couch

I am excited to see how everything is going to pan out. I wish I better understood what was to come. I know that God has a plan for every season in my life, that I am beginning to come to terms with that. I would like if it were easier though.

Craft fair

So, the craft fair was this last weekend. I promised myself I wouldn't be bummed if I didn't sell a lot. I guess that wasn't exactly true. I'm bummed. It is kinda lame to spend all that time, effort and money only for it to tank.

I am going to try alternative means of selling my product, I just wish I didn't have to resort to that. It was the wrong demographic I think. Lots of mommies of kids, not babies. And old ladies who could do it themselves. So, my choices are to keep on or give up. I kinda wanna give up. I kinda wanna just forget about it.

Maybe I'm not designed to have a small business. Maybe I am the kind of person who is designed to work for other people who have it figured out. I am very good at doing what I am told. Always have been. Haven't really ever stepped out. The time that I do, I feel that I have been crushed. If you're wondering, I sold two aprons and one blanket. I guess people don't want quality. that's unfortunate.

I want something that is going to last, something that won't fall apart the first time I use it. I guess though you can get a reasonably quality item at wal mart for cheap cause they outsource. If I paid a kid two bucks an hour to sew for me, I could charge less too. Oh well.

Life goes on, I will sell them, or at the very least give them as gifts. It will all be ok, it's just hard to see when things are so foggy.

Working

So, I haven't blogged in a while.
I just don't have the desire really. I feel as though there is nothing to talk about. My days just aren't that full. Same ol' same ol' all the time.

I am working on making blankets for the craft fair coming up. It is coming too quickly and I have not accomplished nearly enough. I can only sew so fast. Every free hour I am at my machine, working on completing another blanket or burp cloth. I haven't even STARTED aprons. When I think about it, I get overwhelmed. I thought I would DEFINITELY be able to just pound them out. Turns out, that isn't really the case. I should have picked an easier thing to make! :)

Hopefully I sell them. I am very nervous about doing it. I have never done anything like this before. People keep telling me, you will do great, of course you will sell them. Well, I just don't know. I am trying to keep them good quality, but they just aren't as good as I would like them to be. I want all the edges to be exactly strait. I am having a really hard time with that. Are people going to want, mostly OK items? Probably not, they are going to want perfect items without character.

Hmm... my sewing teacher always used to say, never apologize for your work, we weren't made perfect. However, isn't that what people want? Something that is hand made but looks as if you bought it from the store? Or do people like the fact that every line isn't exactly strait? I know if it was me, I would want it to be strait. Do I need to sell them for less because they aren't AS good as I would like? Or do I just have a price and stick to it regardless? Or maybe if they mention the imperfection, to reduce the price? I don't know, all things I am thinking and worrying about.

It should be a fun experience though, right? Right?

Wedding shoot pictures

Some pictures, I know it seems like a lot of pictures, but I took over 1300 pictures! Here is just 24! Hope you enjoy them!

P.S. if you're looking for a photographer, I'm inexpensive! :)

Wedding Photography

So I took pictures at a wedding on Friday, they turned out pretty good. Some stuff is really blurry which is a bummer, but they are definately better! I took something like 1300 pictures! Teale only wants 50! I'm not exactly sure how i am going to dwindle them THAT much. Should be tricky.

I'm feeling better today, I know God has plans for my life. He has it all figured out. I am just along for the ride. I want to be ready for what He has for me.

Anyone getting married and wants a photographer for cheap? That's me! :) I will put pictures up later. C-Ya

Life can be rough sometimes

You know that feeling, when you are just bummed. Maybe there isn't a reason, or maybe there is but it's not REALLY big enough to be THAT bummed about? Well, that's how I feel. I am trying not to let things bother me. But they just do, there is no getting around it. It just sucks! If you're wondering what sucks, it's the fact that for four (too long) years I have been preparing to transfer to a state school to finish my degree well guess what? I don't get to go. Yup. I was told no.

Yes, don't count your chicks before they hatch, etc, etc, etc. Well, I thought I was a shoe-in. No doubt in my mind. Guess there should have been doubt. Yes God has a plan for it, yes He is preparing me for something else. I know that... I mean I know that, it's just really hard to see past this annoying and frustrating time. It is very difficult to see past what I want and what I had planned for my life and let God's plan wash over me.

I want to just be in tears all day, my heart is sad, I am discouraged and not exactly sure how or where my life is to go now. What I am supposed to do. I can still go to school. I can find another school. But will I just be trying to fix it? Where am I supposed to go? Rhetorical questions for you, but life questions for me. My heart is heavy and my life is headed in a different direction than I had thought for the past several years... hmm... life.

Inconvenient Things

A lot of things in life are inconvenient. For instance:
Going to the bathroom
Doing Dishes
Folding Laundry
Getting Gas for your car
Making food
These things are inconvenient and I don't like doing them. Its rather unfortunate they are required... lame.

That's all :)

Are you being the Bride you should be?

So, update on the diet, I have lost 11 pounds and we are not on phase 2. Brad has lost 15 pounds and looks great! I am liking it better now that we have more food choices, it's more manageable. I would definitely recommend this diet to anyone!

So, I was driving to school yesterday (only 2 more weeks... yay!) and came to this realization, so, you know how when a girl gets married, she takes on the name of her husband. She no longer has the name she originated with. She is no longer under the guidance and family she was under before she was married. She takes on a new identity, the identity of her husband, she becomes part of his family and represents her husband in how she acts.

In that same way, before Jesus, before accepting the Lord into your heart, you are part of one family (the world) and you live with that family and under it's authority. However, when you accept Christ, you are no longer under that authority. You take on the name of Christ and become part of His family, and represent Him in your actions and words.

In the same way, when a child acts out, you look at the parents and think (hopefully don't say) you should do a better job. So, as being a child of God, when we "act out" are people looking at God and thinking, "you should do a better job?" Shouldn't we be doing our best to represent the name of Christ? Our new name? It isn't just our God, it is our identity, our lively hood. Our reason for living.

You know, when you get married, you don't forget about your family, you still see them, you still hang out with them. However, your relationship is different. Even in the house you grew up in you become a guest, because you have your own home, with your husband. In the same way, the world we were so a part of before, we still see, we are here, but we no longer are under it's roof. We become visitors, because our home is no longer on earth as it was before. It's in Heaven. We have a new place to live, it's just like we are visiting our parents for a while, it's fine, but not home. One day, we will get to go home, and it will be right. It will be that comfort, knowing you're home and get to kick off your shoes and lay on the floor if you want to. It will be yours. That satisfaction of being home, there is just nothing like that feeling.

Shouldn't we be doing our best to move out of our parents home? You're supposed to move out and move on when you get married. Have you moved out of your parent's home and into your home with Christ?

You know, in the Bible, Jesus says that he is the bridegroom and the church is the bride... I get it.

Day 9...

Today is day 9 of my diet, I feel pretty good. I am really starting to enjoy the results I have lost 7 pounds and am feeling very good about myself! I like it a lot!

Today is a pot luck barbeque with my homegroup. I have to bring my own food, unfortunately that is a big downside of being on a strict diet. I have to bring my own food. It's not terrile, just makes me feel silly.

I got a lot done today, I did 2 loads of laundry, folded several loads, did the dishes and cleaned the sink. I changed our towels and changed our sheets, made our bed and discovered Pandora. And I STILL didn't feel like I had enough to do. I haven't had a tuesday free in a long time, it's weird, I feel off.

Anyway, tomorrow, normal day.

Hope yours is good.

The Diet...

So, I started the South Beach Diet on Monday. I thought it was going to be hard, but nothing could have prepared me for the awful way I felt the first 3 days. I thought I might as well just die. I couldn't take it, I literally felt sick, the new food, the complete ending of the foods I love.

Well, lets just say it sucked! I was SO exhausted I could barely keep my eyes open at 9 O'clock! I wanted to go to sleep at 4! I was so tired, and I had such a headache I could barely see strait. I wanted to just give up. But I didn't, I got some encouragement from a friend and knew it was going to be ok, and it was going to get better, I just had to make it through the sugar and starch withdrawals.

I REALLY, HONESTLY wanted to quit, I know it seems that I am being over dramatic, but it was bad. It was literally all I could think about, I was dreaming about South Beach food and the food I couldn't eat. Last night I dreamt that I cheated on my diet and had a PB&J Sandwich. And I don't even really like PB&J! I was literally consumed by the feeling of deprivation.

All this to say, today, I feel great, honestly great. My stomach is getting used to the different food, I feel more awake, I don't have a headache or stomach ache. I made it through! YAY! Now I feel as though I can do it! You know, I even worked out this morning and wasn't exhausted afterward and it was one of the hardest workouts I've done. I was fine. THAT was weird. I guess the food that I'm eating is really fueling me better than I thought. Cool. Tonight we are having Steak... not so bad huh!

Sad, disappointed but was expecting it

So remember how i was supposed to start being a Nanny for an infant in the coming weeks, well, it has been removed from my to do list.

So, here's what happened, I woke up this morning to a text, which said that her sister just found out she is pregnant and she quit her job. Her sister offered to watch the baby. And she is going to do it. I understand the situation, of course you'd rather a relative watch your kid over someone else. But, it is kinda lame, she and I had been talking about me doing it before he was even born. Well, oh well.

In all truthfulness, I knew it wasn't going to happen, I don't know how, I could just tell, I knew something was going to happen. Maybe it was God preparing me, I'm not sure, but it's alright. You know, I was worried about taking the job I have because I had promised to watch this baby. I even considered turning it down out of loyalty. But I didn't, I figured, if it came down to it I could quit my job and just be a Nanny. Turns out that won't be necessary. This is more stable and easily more flexible too. For instance, if I ever got sick, it wouldn't only be inconvenient for me but for her too. I know it's for the better. Less stress now.

I was very concerned about how I was going to get everything done being so busy. Now, not the problem. I guess God knows the whole time! Now I can see I shouldn't have been worried.

On a different note, I got a yellow shelf at the rummage sale a couple saturdays ago. Yesterday I painted it black and now it is hanging in my bedroom with a picture from my wedding and several candles, it is very nice! I'm pleased!

Today I have a lot of cleaning up to do. My living room is kind of a mess as well as the dining room and the bedroom. Off to make my house clean! It's crazy how fast things accumulate when you are busy! Certain things become less of a priority. Cleanliness needs to be higher on my list! :) Anyway, have a good day!

Cinnamon rolls are tricky!

So, whenever I search for Recipes on the internet I come across blogs, blogs of what people thought of the recipe, blogs for made up recipes, etc. It has inspired me. I very much like cooking and I feel like sharing.

I made cinnamon rolls today...

Well to start you are supposed to read the recipe through to make sure you have all the ingredients BEFORE you start... I neglected that part.

So, I have this recipe for cinnamon rolls, and I start making them, it calls for 4 cups of flour, I had like 3 1/2... So, less floury, more sticky dough. Also, you are supposed to let the dough rise for AN HOUR! I didn't read that part at first and I thought you could just go from dough to baking... nope. Well, it also turns out it needed 4 packages of yeast... 4! I used 2. Now I know why it called for 4, they didn't rise as much as I would have liked.

Anyway, while I was slicing the dough tube into chunks it was more turning into cinnamon globs. THEN I remembered that people use floss to cut cheese and I though, hmm... So I went and got some floss, it worked WONDERFULLY! Yay! cinnamon rolls! Actual rolls not globs... awesome!

Also, now I know why you are supposed to put the rolls close together, because when they have a lot of room between them, they expand O U T instead of up. So, they are kind of flat cinnamon rolls.

This recipe only calls for 2 1/2 tablespoons of cinnamon but 4 cups of sugar total. They should be called sugar rolls! Cause that is most definately what they are.

All this to say, lots of work, 3 hours of work to be precise, but well worth it. They are very yummy! Even flat and even globby.

Oh, and the recipe is enough to feed an army for breakfast! 24 rolls. That's a lot of cinnamon rolls! Anyway, summing up, have enough of the ingredients, floss works great to cut things and be hungry.

Here's the recipe:

Hiya!

Hiya! Lucy says Hiya now, cause of me! Isn't that awesome, I have rubbed off on her, I just think that is so cool!

Haha, I was just reading one of my old blogs and realized, I use almost no punctuation. :) I bet you have already figured that one out, but it made me laugh. I never have been that great at sentence structure. Well, I know how a sentence is supposed to sound and I can edit other people's papers, but for some reason I can't be distant when I read my own. I guess that is because I know how I MEANT to say it. But fortunately for me, it's my blog, so, it's OK if I want to write and entire paragraph with one period and no commas. Haha, THAT would be funny!

Anyway, I'm feeling better today, still not 100%, so I skipped P.E. but still went to work. Now I'm tired. I feel as though I could nap for hours! Sick will do that to ya. I really HATE being sick. Yup, definately one of the worst things.

I am going to start being a Nanny to a newborn starting in two weeks! I am so very excited, and nervous too! It's been a long time since I have encountered a newborn, let alone a baby that small, just over 5 pounds! Wow! I'm excited though, should be fun! And I am going to start babysitting on fridays too! Wow, I'm gonna be working 5 days a week! Still not full time, but that's kinda a lot in comparison to what I am used to.

Hey, but guess what I found out, when I am gone, and my house is clean, it stays clean! Unfortunate downside, when I am gone and my house is dirty... it stays dirty. So, the way I see it is if I clean my house on monday, providing I keep up with it throughout the week, it SHOULD stay clean till friday, right? I have yet to find out. Though, I am getting better at keeping up on stuff.

Until later ya'll!

Sick = Ick!

Yup, I'm sick, haven't been in a very long time! It's lame and stuff! I have a stuffy nose, post nasal drip, a sore throat and fever. Could be a sinus infection, or maybe just a cold. Either way, not digging it very much! It's oober lame!

So, here I am, in bed. Resting, hoping I will feel better enough tomorrow to go to work! Otherwise I will have to call in, I don't feel well! And, I don't wanna do that. We shall see. Had a photoshoot yesterday. Probly was a bad plan to go, should have been resting, oh well. What's done is done! Maybe I'll post some pictures!

So, I was just thinking, you know how when your dating, it is about 6 months before you really know the person, to where they let their guard down and show you who they are. I have always just limited that to dating. But, a relationship is still a relationship, right? I mean, a new friendship is still just as fragile as a dating one. So, all that to say, I bet that the 6 month rule applies to friendships too! I mean, to be careful how much you invest in the friendship in the first 6 months, just as you would in a dating relationship. I really feel that would save some heartache.

Also, don't give up so easy. Friendships are work, just like any other relationship, it takes both people to try for it to work.

The feeling of completion... awesome!

I finished the frame I've been talking about! YAY!

Before:

After:

It doesn't even look like the same frame huh! I haven't decided what to do with it yet, maybe I will give it to good will or something, Maybe I will frame something in it... probly not that one. :) It's nice huh! You suppose I could sell it? Maybe huh! Anyway, I have completed a task! Yay!

Now I want to make an apron, or maybe I want to make a quilt and sell it... hmm, I like that!

Life Realizations

So, I have been doing a lot of thinking lately, thinking about things that normally I don't ponder. And I have come to this conclusion, I want to be a different person, not that I want a different life, but that I want to be a better version of myself. I have spent so many years caring about what people think of me, and how I can be the person they want me to be. I have decided that I no longer want to be that person, I care yes, I mean a little caring is important so that you aren't disrupting social norms, but to live life like it matters.

I mean, this is it, you only get one chance at life, and once you are dead, you don't get a second chance, so shouldn't we want to make our lives count? To make our mark on life instead of letting life happen to us? The mundane, everyday things really start to add up and make life seem bleak, but be of good cheer, those aren't the things to dwell on, there are tons of awesome things out there that we take for granted.

Take for instance, the Apostles, I was reading in Acts this morning and it was like the stories were coming alive, the disciples really understood what it meant to walk like Jesus. People used to lay in the road that Peter traveled just so they could have his shadow fall on them so they could be healed, that is the SAME Jesus I serve, that Jesus is available to me... to ME! And you! The Holy Spirit in power is alive for us today, we just have to live it and take it. Peter wasn't a special guy, he wasn't a speaker, but it says, the Holy Spirit came upon him and he began to preach and thousands came to believe in Jesus! How cool is that!

I wanna have that, I wanna know Jesus like that! Growing up in the church I definitely has it's perks, but in any religion there is one problem with being born into it, there isn't the real, on your knees, this is what I want to believe moment. It's more like, yep, that sounds good... And golly, I love that I grew up in the church and know the Bible stories, but you know when you watch the same funny movie over and over and over and you can recite every line? And eventually it looses some of the funny? It's kinda like that, when your a kid and you hear that Jonah was swallowed by a big fish you say, WOW! When you hear it now, you say, yup, heard that one... it looses it's power, you become tainted and dull. What was once powerful and an awesome story of God's power has become, just another Bible story.

I guess that's why Jesus says, to become like a child. I mean, it has something to it, when I told my Sunday school kids that Jesus was arrested and killed, they all said, "But why?" "That's not fair!" When as an adult you say, yup, that's just what happened, it has lost it's power. But why? Cause we have let it.

We have faded into our lives little things that maybe don't seem like much but they corrupt our minds and our hearts. "It's just a little nudity" "It's just a little language" "It's just a short sex scene" "I'm not really listening to the music, just the beat". These are all lies that we have told ourselves to make excuses for doing things we shouldn't be doing. I don't want to make excuses anymore, I want to be a different person. The world is a hard place to live, so much profanity being thrown at you from every angle, it is perverse, and as Christians we need to separate ourselves from it. We should not try to be as close to the world as possible, but as far away from them as possible.

People so eagerly put stickers on their car, but does it mean anything? What is the point?? So that non-Christians can hate the "Christian" that just cut them off? Isn't that using the Lord's name in vain? Using Jesus for your own benefit, to look like a good Christian and then shaming His name by your driving?

All this to say, I want to matter, I want my life to matter, when I die I want my kids to say, "Mom really knew Jesus!" That is what I want! I want that little line between when I was born and when I die to be significant.

Don't you?

Blog Blog Blog Blog

I don't really know what to write, I am feeling kinda bla today. The weather doesn't help any. I dislike when it is gloomy outside.

I ate breakfast this morning before work and ate a couple snacks at work, though I didn't get to eat lunch till like 3:30 when I got home, so I feel icky! My tummy is all topsy turvy... ick.

I like my job and I like that I don't have to sit still the whole time, he has me run around and do stuff outside the office, which sometimes I like but other times I want to just sit... oh well, I am happy I have a job.

My husband has a half day tomorrow, that should be fun! He's coming home soon, I am excited to see him!

I am going to be teaching a friend of mine how to quilt, I am also excited about that! She is a massage therapist and she said she will trade massages for lessons, yay! I need a massage... bad! I'm very excited about that situation!

Hmm.... I don't feel good. :( I have to go make dinner.

Update: I started working on that frame I told you about a while ago, I started sanding off the old paint so I can repaint it. It was more work than anticipated and all the fumes made my throat hurt so I took a break. I also started going through all my wedding pictures and picking favorites. I have to go through them again and probly again after that to narrow it down even more! I still haven't found a scrapbook that I like, we shall see.
Someone suggested that I print photo books instead of scrapbooking. She was saying how it is so much better and so much less time. But it's not personal... right? I don't know, we shall see. I am not ready to give up on scrapbooking yet.

Anyway, have an awesome day!

The test continued...

I got 100% on my test! Yay!

I went to lunch today with my mom, sister, aunt, cousin and grand parents. It was pretty fun.
My cousin is starting a business making hair bands for infants. I think it could be profitable for her! Hopefully it works out. Maybe I will post something later.

I want to start selling stuff I make too. I would have to get better at it in order to make it profitable, but that's ok. I think I could make a good amount of money. We shall see. Today I have cleaning to do, you know, it never ends. Cleaning just goes on and on.

I wonder, how does one set themselves apart when creating a business? Why would someone want my item over someone elses and vice versa. I have been doing a lot of thinking about photography recently, why would someone want me to take pictures of them when they could have someone else do it? I guess it's a process, putting yourself out there, marketing, making yourself known. Creating a name so to speak. Hmm... thoughts to ponder. I have been doing that a lot. Really looking at what I want to do. And moving forward in doing it. It is one thing to want to do something and totally another to actually do it. I am learning.

Just for those of you keeping track, I have been doing really well completing tasks I have started, I am feeling much more accomplished and very proud.

I also jogged a whole lap yesterday, I know that sounds so small, but that is a victory for me! I wanted to quit, I wanted to stop and walk, but I didn't! I pushed through and finished the lap! I was so excited I wanted to jump up and down, but was so tired. I am improving! YAY! And, my endurance is improving too. It is so exciting when you realize that your work isn't for nothing!

I just hope with selling things and photography, that comes sooner than later. I guess I am scared to go forward because I don't want to fail, I don't want to run and run and have nothing to show for it.

Hmm.. updates

It has been a while as Justin has pointed out. I have been busy. I have to relearn it feels like how to do all the things I have been doing till now, cooking, cleaning, etc. When you are a stay at home wife for 6 months, you get accustomed to a certain type of day, a routine if you will. But throwing in a curve ball, (ie. a job) throws off the whole balance of things. I am learning better how to balance back, but it might take a little while.

So, new job, I really like it, my boss is very friendly, he cracks me up, he will give me a task and then come and talk to me when I am trying to do it. So, I talk to him, and then I start doing the task again and he wants to continue talking. I guess that's good though, it means he likes talking to me. It's cause I'm awesome! :) And, it will teach me to be a better multitasker! :)

So, I do things like, put notices up in the building, file papers, organize stacks of papers, input data into spread sheets, I am pretty good at it too! There have been several times where he gave me something to do and I came back with it completed and he said, "wow, that was speedy" I was very proud of myself! So, he is teaching me more stuff and giving me more things to do, which I like, I don't like just sitting around twirling my thumbs. Not for me.

School... I graduate, or am supposed to graduate in the summer for my associates, it only took 4 years... :( ick. And I applied to SDSU and Cal State San Marcos. I got a letter, yesterday, from SDSU saying, "no thank you, we don't have room for you" Which has left me slightly discouraged considering when i applied last year I got in. Oh well, I guess I am not supposed to go there, I think maybe God doesn't want me there. You think He does that? Closes doors where you aren't supposed to be? I think He does.

So, anyway, it is up to San Marcos. Otherwise I will either, not go to school, or, I will have to end up going to a school like National, it's not that it's a bad school, it's just that I didn't wanna go there. So, we shall see. The sucky thing about colleges now, with the budget cuts and everything, they only accept fall transfers, so, you have to wait a WHOLE YEAR before you can apply again. Lame. I don't wanna wait another year. National is so expensive though. Hmm... We shall see.

So, I start work today at noon. I kinda dislike starting late, stupid morning class. Though, the semester is over soon, yay! And then I can start earlier. I must go get ready now.

Have a marvelous day!

I got the Job!

Remember yesterday how I said I didn't think I was going to get that job, well, I did! They called me this morning and told me I got it! Yay! That's super exciting! I've never been picked for a job that there is only one position available! It's kinda a neat feeling! So, tomorrow I have to go fill out paperwork and then I start learning stuff. I am very excited, should be a fun experience! I have to buy clothes. Lame, that's the annoying part, the lady said she would email me the dress code so I know what to wear. We shall see.

Anyway, I have a test tomorrow I am SUPPOSED to be studying for, I should do that.

Side note: Veggie soup = yummy dinner!

Running and tummy...

Today I ran a mile and a half, a half way through the year kind of thing and did it in 17:53! 3 minutes faster than last time! YAY! I am so excited and I don't even feel terrible like I did the first time. It was difficult but I jogged pretty much the whole time, and I found that when I was jogging consistently it was easier to do finish because I didn't feel like I was gonna die! I actually feel good today! I think maybe I could like exercise... shocking, I know!

I have not heard anything from the job, so, it seems that it is a no for that job. That's OK, I am sure I will find something. I look forward to what God has in store for me in that area!

Anyway, I have been feeling kinda, icky the last few days, kinda nauseous and such, I am not sure why and thinking it might be a good idea to go to the Dr. I really hate going to the Dr. but I guess if they can help me feel better, that would be good. :)

Weekend Overview

Weekend:

This weekend has been the busiest I have had in a long time! On Saturday we went to Mission trails and walked around for a while, I twisted my ankle a zillion times, but it's OK. We then taught Sunday school, came home and I made super yummy Carne Asada Fries and we played Wii boxing, which is super fun! Though I think I pulled something in my arms cause they HURT! Anyway, fun day!

Then on Sunday we went to church and then went to the Organ Pavilion and listened to some guy play a really big organ. It was very enjoyable, for me, Brad got really bored. :) We then went over to the Zoo to see some animals, we went in the humming bird aviary and also walked through the reptile section. We then went to WalMart and the grocery store to get some stuff. Then we came home and ate Pizza and watched 11:14, that's kind of a weird creepy movie! I had some WEIRD dreams last night, pretty sure it's because of that.

Monday:

Today is looking up to be an exciting day, I am working on my scrapbook and think I am going to make some aprons to sell. I want to improve them but can't quite figure out exactly how to do it. I'm sure I will figure it out! I am waiting today on a call for a possible job. They said they will call today, so, we shall see. :)

So many projects I want to do, but I am getting better at finishing what I start, I am beginning to have discipline in that area, finish the one thing before going on to the next. It is almost painful how much I don't wanna do that, but I will win! Anyway, off to do those things I need to do!

Thoughts and stuff

So, it is already Tuesday afternoon and I haven't blogged in several days. I have thought of many topics of possible bloggage, including, but not limited to, the fact that we as a people are compulsive multitaskers, and that I think it is to a fault. That I dislike looking for a job, that my days have kinda been odd recently, busy but not, long but go way too fast. I'm not exactly sure, but I do know that in spite of having thoughts swirl around in my head all day every day I can't really think of anything that I would like to write about today. So, this is my blog! :)

Maybe tomorrow I shall elaborate on one or more of these topics, or maybe another, like that I finished my scrapbook! YAY! Well, I finished with all the pictures I had printed. Scrap booking is a funny thing, unless you have a designated stop point, it just keeps going and going and going, cause as long as life continues, so does the scrapbook.

I want to do a wedding scrapbook, with pictures only of the wedding, my favorite ones. I will have to go through all 900 and pick like 80 of my favorites. should be interesting. I also want to work on that frame. I bought paint! I'm kinda excited to work on it and see how it turns out. Maybe I'll post before and after pictures, we will see!

Anyway, off to make dinner!

Life

So I go to class today, all is normal. I actually make it to class on time today and had a moderately good time. I get in my car to leave, I turn the key and.... nothing, I turn the key again... nothing. SHOOT! My car didn't start. I called AAA and they came to save me. Well, jump start my car. Apparently it was my battery, almost completely dead, it is supposed to have 12, something, volts maybe, and it had 2. I guess that's not enough to run a car on... I dunno. So the man jump starts my car and tells me, "Don't turn it off!"

So, I made my way ALL the way around the city, I got all turned around and stuff, distracted by my car not working properly and made a lovely circle. When I FINALLY got to Wal Mart they said it would take 45 minutes to replace the battery. Well, that's kind of a long time to take one out and put another one in, but oh well. So, I walked and walked and walked around Wal Mart. An hour and a half later, I got to leave. Golly, I was STARVING! I was thoroughly annoyed at the length of time it took to put the battery in. They LIE, but I guess, it's Wal Mart, what do you expect?

Anyway, I bought some things we need/wanted, so I guess that's OK. Still annoyed though.

I got home and ate! Took a shower, cause I got very icky in P.E. today and now it's 2. Got almost literally nothing done around the house today and Brad's gonna be home soon. Though such is life, sometimes it sucks more than others! ;)

Though, being Thankful in the midst of a nuisance helps, ya know, thankful that I have a car that needs a new battery, I mean, lots of people don't even have cars to complain about, so, I guess it's OK! :)

Sore

Not like deathly sore, but like I can tell I worked out sore. That's the kind you're supposed to be, it means you worked out the appropriate amount. My thighs and calves mostly sore (probably from running and jumping and such).

So, the dishes problem did not get fixed yesterday, I ran an empty load of cleaner through, thought, this will help! Right? Wrong... it's as if nothing changed, they came out just as icky dirty as when I put them in. So so so sad! Eh, oh well, guess that means a little extra elbow grease!

I think today is going to be a good day! I decided! My sister is coming over to cook tonight, I don't know what to do, but it's gonna be yummy... cause I said so! I do have to say, I think I'm a pretty fantastic cook! I will have to be slightly creative considering we need to go shopping REALLY bad!

I have much happy in my heart today! God is so good! He is so faithful even when we aren't, gosh we suck sometimes, but God is always there and always pulls us through! I love that!

Looking for a job is kinda lame. Though I feel good when I am doing it, like I am doing something. It's good, I like it!

End :)

Dishes Dishes Dishes

Today I went to class again! We played tag. Ha ha, like elementary school kids! It was rather enjoyable. We also did a variety of other activities, like running, jumping, hopping and skipping. We also talked about the amount of sugar and salt that are in items and she had the amounts in little baggies. Some of the stuff has SO MUCH salt! Eww! You know when people say, wow, that has a lot of salt, or a lot of sugar, you say, ya, but really, what does it mean? What does THAT look like? Well, today we got to see what it looks like and eww!

I also found out today that to loose one pound I will have to work out for 10 class periods while also maintaining or lessening my caloric intake. I feel very defeated! Considering, I wanna loose like 15 by summer. I feel as though that goal is out of reach... so sad! Should I keep on keeping on, or give up? I haven't decided yet. Maybe lengthen the goal, give myself longer to accomplish it? I don't know, but what I do know is if I decide to do it, it's gonna take forever! Especially if I keep eating ice cream, which is really what I want to eat! Or maybe a candy bar, maybe cookies? Yep! All of the above.

Anyway, today I have a sink full of dishes and finally my dishwasher seems to be working. Yay! I have a love hate relationship with that dishwasher, it sorta saves me time. Cause in reality, I think it eats up more time, the dishes come out dirty, I have to rewash them, while all the while, other dishes are stacking up. They come out dirty again and I have too many dirty dishes to keep in the sink anymore, so I take out the "clean" dishes and put them on the counter and wash the dirty ones. They come out "clean" so I put the "clean" ones back in and rewash them... and again, dirty dishes stack up! Sheesh! Oh well, least I have dishes, right?

Well, off to face the pile!

Tears that don't come...

Today has been a pretty good day so far! It's monday, there is a lot I need to accomplish! But that's ok. All I can think about today is my sister. I have been praying constantly. I love that kid and don't know what to do. I wish I could just fix it all. But I can't. It's lame. That's what's on my mind today.

I also have to edit pictures of the shoot that we did yesterday. It was a maternity shoot and she was very cute with her pregnant belly! Anyway, off to do dishes, and several other to-do's today!

Small Victories

I was late to class today and they were already at the track when I got there (we run every day). I was 5 minutes late! So I get down there and she is at the end of explaining what we are doing today and I didn't understand, so I went up to her and asked what we are doing today. She looks at me and says, "Are you late?" I say yes and she said, "You missed all my directions." And I looked at her and said, "Yes." I was very assertive and it felt really good! Normally I might have moseyed around it and gave her some excuse. But I didn't do that. I just stood my ground. I was barely late and she didn't have to be yucky! When we got back to class she called me up and gave me a dot next to my name. I guess that means late... oooh, scary! :) She was like, "yep, that's what happens!" I thought that to be highly amusing. She felt as though she was punishing me... I thought it was funny! :)

On my way home a car tried to kill me. I was at a stop light in the far right lane. The entire other side of the street after the intersection was full and so I was waiting. The light turned green for me and so I started to go (cause my lane had cleared up) and this car making a right turn is looking toward the direction he is going (instead of oncoming traffic) and tries to turn into the lane to my right which is completely full! So, he stops, right in my lane! I honked at him and he was like, "what?" it was so annoying! It's not a hard rule... don't stop in a lane when there is oncoming traffic! As well as you aren't supposed to block an intersection! And the one he should have learned long ago, look both ways! :) Oh well! I'm alive! :)

P.s. I am hating running less! It's a pretty day today!

It's Wednesday... I think?

This morning I babysat for a class and it was fun and I enjoyed myself. I really like babies!

You know how there are people that you just don't like, maybe there isn't a real tangible reason, but just something about them rubs you wrong? Well, I feel that way about the lead teacher for the babysitting. She's a fine lady, perfectly nice, but her attitude about things I dislike, and what she decides is important. Yes, she is in that position for a reason, however, I'm not sure she should be.

She runs around panicky about almost everything... oh my gosh, the baby is crying, let me go get him tissues, the two year olds are going to crush the babies (they were playing fine) she is just overly protective. I'm not a fan of that. She wants everything to be just so... they are BABIES! They don't stay or sit still or listen very well. They are busy and crazy. They just are. And as babysitters, I feel that it is our job to help them enjoy themselves and forget that Mommy isn't there. As mom, yes, there is discipline and such, but we are not to give punishment. It's just difficult. She feels that her way is the right way and the only right way. Fortunately it is only once a month with her. :)

Anyway, more laundry, more dishes and getting dinner ready.

Cute story: Lucy was in the class this morning and everything that she saw, she said, "Oooh" "Wow" "Ba!" (Ball and several other words too). She was SO excited to be in the class with all the different toys that she couldn't contain herself! She was so excited to play with everything! Gosh I love that kid!

Food and Jury Duty

Last night I made incredible chimichangas! YUM! I am eating one for lunch right now.

So, I just got dismissed from Jury Duty... yay! Sometimes I think I wouldn't mind being on a jury, others, I wouldn't, like today. I think it's a cool process and it's important, I just don't wanna do it. I guess though if everyone had that attitude we wouldn't ever have any juries. That might be a problem... Anyway, I didn't lie to get out of it or anything, I was just honest. Cheers to being honest!

So, while I was waiting to see if I was going to get called to a court room, I was dozing leaning on my hand and apparently I had fallen asleep because the lady announced something on the loud speaker and I just about jumped out of my skin! It scared me awake! When I got up to go upstairs to my court room the hall for the elevators was crazy packed so I decided to take the stairs... four flights! I was slightly pooped when I got to the top. It was exciting! :)

This was the closest I have ever been to being on a jury. I was in the first seat of the back row (you know, not the people they question in the first round but the second set) and they dismissed half the jury just off the bat and filled in the seats with the other jurors. They picked a jury panel and then went on to pick alternates. I went up and sat in the jury box and answered all my questions to be an alternate... I made it out by the skin of my nose. :) They dismissed me! Which I was thankful, if I was going to be on a jury I would want to actually want to be on the jury not an alternate. Then I got to go home, and here you find me, as I mentioned at the beginning of the post, I am eating lunch! :)

Funny side note, one of the people was named Lipshits... sucks to be him!

Photoshop fun!

I am so enjoying photoshop! Look what I did! :) Yay!

Update: Laundry folded, dishes on their way and bed made! :)

Weekend highlights and Monday morning to-dos

Saturday:

Brad and I hung out in the morning and I went to a photoshop class with Teale Photography in the afternoon. It was a very informational class. I learned a lot about photoshop and am not as fearful to use it now! I have more courage to push buttons, where as before I didn't want to mess up the picture. Then I found, you can't REALLY mess up the picture if you have a copy of the picture... duh! I came home and we ate dinner and went to church.

Sunday:

We woke up and went to church. After church we went grocery shopping. After putting everything away and deciding what to have for lunch (it always takes a while) we ate lunch. After lunch we hung out and talked, it was super fun. Later in the day I went to a mediocre-ly fun Mary Kay party. The company was great, the lady was odd. My hubby hung out with Mo and after the party we took him home. I then played on photoshop some more and Brad sorted baseball cards.

All in all, a very enjoyable weekend!

This morning I found out that a friend of mine got engaged over the weekend! So exciting! I love new love! It is so exciting!

I think today I am going to work on cleaning up the house. Ya know, laundry, make the bed sort of stuff and maybe I will scrapbook some. It's been quite some time since I have! Anyway, off to do the things I need to do and some stuff that is more fun! :)

Boredom

Bored today.

Shopping is fun?

Today I went to my P.E. class. It is getting progressively less painful every class. I don't feel as much like my heart is going to jump out of my chest! That's a plus! :) YAY!

Then I went to my hair appt. and I thought it was going to take a while to get there.... nope. It took like 2 minutes! So, I got there half an hour early! I got to hang out and text people, it wasn't bad. I don't mind sitting by myself! :) I got my hair done and it looks great! :) I'm excited about it! It's been a really long time since I've had my hair done. But something funny, after she finished my hair I realized how bad my eyebrows look! Funny, it's all about perception. I didn't think they looked that bad before! Now I think they look awful! Oh well, a work in progress right?

Then I went home and showered! My mom came over and we chatted for a while, that was fun!

I went shopping with friends afterward. We were shopping for a dress for one of our friends, only to find, she didn't like any of the dresses we suggested. It's ok, just long! She is very modest... which is good, but makes shopping difficult! Cause, well, there really aren't very many "modest" choices for clothes out right now. So, they are too short or low, or see through or.... She finally found a dress that looks great on her and I'm excited for her!

Anyway, I had a really hard time not buying so many things in the store! There was one dress I just loved but we are trying not to spend money. It is SUPER hard to go to the store and not buy anything! Everything I walked by I said, "OOH! I WANT THAT!" But I resisted! Yay!

It was a fun time. A learning experience. Fun nonetheless though! I can't wait to go shopping again!

Pretty hair yay!

Good days and bad days, we all have them

Have you every had one of "those" days? You know the ones I'm talking about... The ones that really aren't that bad, and bad things aren't necessarily happening, its just that you feel kinda icky and crummy. Well, I'm having one of "those" days. I kinda just feel off and icky.

I went out to lunch with family, it was nice. :) I came home and put a roast in the crock pot, did a load of dishes, a load of laundry. I started putting bottles of beer away and dropped two! They shattered ALL over the kitchen. Now, beer is carbonated so when they dropped it catapulted the glass. It was very time consuming to clean up. Besides the fact that I got covered in it and had to shower and change my clothes! Now I have to finish cleaning up my kitchen and prepare for my sister to come over to cook.

I guess it's just a mediocre day. Just life... sometimes life isn't as fun as it is other days.

Pictures

I just went through all the pictures I have taken since I have been an intern for Teale Photography and I found that as I have been practicing taking pictures, it is harder to pick favorites. I like more and more of the pictures I have been taking! I am happy with how they are turning out too and I think that I am finding my place in photography! It's neat! :)

Eww!

So, I went over to visit my mom today, just talk and stuff and my cat was hanging out by the door (where people leave shoes) and I was trying to let her in, but she wouldn't go. So, curious to see what was so exciting about shoes, I moved them. Only to find that there was a baby mouse, not much bigger than an inch, dutifully hiding under the shoes. My cat was all too excited that the mouse was no longer hidden and chased it off the porch.

When I was leaving, I open the door to see on the welcome mat, that same mouse, but now it was dead. Poor mouse... and EWW! My cat thought it would be very nice to leave us a present! So thoughtful of her catching food for us so we can eat.

I was just thinking, that's love! It's a weird animal type of love, but that's what it is, devotion to her master and she is showing that by leaving, what to her, is a treat... Interesting. She gave us her treasure! Unfortunately for her... and us... we didn't want that treasure, so the poor little mouse got to take a trip to the trash. Sad for the mouse...

I love my kitty! I wish I could take her home!

People and Parties

If you say you are going to come, then come! Let your yes be yes and your no be no. I know that sometimes "maybe" is inevitable, especially when money is involved. But if you say you are coming to something, I don't care how inconvenient it is for you, you gosh darn come!

If you have absolutely no intention of coming or think it's pretty sure you can't come, just say no! It's better to say no and not come, or say no and come than to be lame and say yes you're coming and then don't show up! And golly, it is rude to cancel THE DAY OF! Especially when food is involved. The food has already been bought, and in a lot of cases already made!

So, do people think it is polite to say, sorry, I can't come the day of the get together?? Cause it's not. I think the only excuse to cancel the day of an event is if you're sick... or you Mommies, if your baby is sick. Honestly, I think that is the only reason I am ok with. I do my very best to go to things that I say yes to. Most of the time I don't "feel like" going, but I said I would and I am to be a woman of my word. It doesn't matter if something better comes up. When you make a commitment, you are to stick with it.

I guess that's where maybe comes in handy, you're not forced to make any kind of commitment, it is a "safe zone" for everyone who can't handle to make up their mind! Golly! MAKE UP YOUR MIND! It's like those surveys you take, you know, rate your experience 1 - 5 one being hated it and 5 being loved it... you know what the most common response is? 3. 3 is no opinion.... or, maybe! When you say maybe, you are saying, I can't make up my mind. I have no opinion. Wow... I guess maybe having no opinion is easy in some regards. No one to answer to, nothing to pick. No side to stand for. You get to be lukewarm with no ramifications if you come or don't come. But the party planner is left feeling disappointed and let down when in fact you don't come, which is the inevitable truth. Why you ask doesn't the party planner just plan the maybes for no? I guess you could say that she still has optimism in the face of continual disappointment, that MAYBE, just maybe this time the maybes will indeed become yes.

In these situations, when you look at the people who come, you really do see the people who care about you... or maybe it's just the people who have nothing better to do? I guess either way leaves something to be desired.

Friday!

Today I made a "To Do" list and wrote each item on sticky notes. I proceeded to put them on my computer monitor (my time sucker) and since the monitor was covered. I actually did the things I was supposed to do! It is really nice to accomplish what you set out to do!

I cleaned using vinegar and water mixed together. It makes things VERY shiny and doesn't leave an icky residue like a lot of cleaners do! I cleaned the counter tops, the mirrors, the toilet and the floors with the mixture in a spray bottle! It works really well, it smells bad, I had to open windows and turn on the fan so I didn't get sick! :) It was a different experience, I am so used to other cleaners! I think I like it better than all those chemicals!

People suck at driving! It's not even raining! I don't know what is up with that! People on the freeway were going like 55 and 60, I don't know why. They just were! I hate it when that happens. Or what a lot of people have been doing recently, or I have been noticing recently is that people break all the time! They decide they are going too fast, or something, I don't know and just break... for no apparent reason! I dislike it!

There was something else I wanted to say, I forget what it was though! It's ok!

Later! My hubby is home!

Thursday! It's almost Friday! Just a bit closer!

Yesterday I went shopping with my mommy! We had a very good time! First we went out to breakfast with Jess and went to ross! I got new clothes! YAY! Gosh I needed some new stuff! I am very excited about the new outfits I bought!

Today... I went to class. It was fun today. We didn't go outside to run... I like that WAY better! We did cardio inside today! Then weight training. I definately prefer weight training to cardio. I know it's good for my heart and lungs and stuff. But it's more difficult! I am WAY more tired after that and I don't really like it!

Today I am going to a "clothes exchange" so, I am going to go through my clothes. I don't really have things that other people will want. That's ok. Maybe I will donate it instead! :) People need clothes and stuff, right?

I think it is really funny that since I have been "blogging" I have started thinking, how can I blog about this. Like the other day, I was making cookies. It failed. Well, sorta, the cookies taste amazing but didn't turn out in appearence like I wanted them to. I was trying to make a pink heart surrounded by white, you know, how the cookies in the tube look, well, i sorta did it, but then it turned to mush. So I made pink and white swirl, which is cute too, but not what I wanted... oh well, next time!

I enjoy writing!

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